STARBOARDER

Getting old or something

Haven't got around to write a lot , recently.
Somehow, age seems to get to me, or whatever you would prefer to insert right here: __________________
It's up to free interpretation. I'm rarely online, due to a very, very, very awful internet connection that friggin just won't work the way it ought to. People will have noticed. By now, all those 5000 something viewers, be they dimensionally multi-DUH-plicated or counter-spliced or the 2 or 3 even real people, must have noticed, there wasn't a lot of action from my side.

True is, I feel a little disconnected to the music world, and it started some cuple years back, when I had those bad ass OP's and had to move in to sick bay for quite some lame a time.
I also think, something happened to my ole fuzzy bean along with it. Diabetes mellitus is one sleazy phuckin bitch of a disease, really. It doesn't only cause neuropathiy or micro-angiopathy and stuff, it takes some of the most beloved senses.
I had that old friend back in the days. He suffered from diabetes and in his last years he would go blind and deaf pretty well. Okay, these days the whole science on it has become quite sophisticated, so people don't go blind in a short time period any longer. Still it kind of takes it's toll on ye, if ye want to avoid it or just watch yourself close enough to detect the progress. My eyes seem to go first...

So I haven't been doing an awful lot of music either. Ambient Wave turned out to be the latest piece I ever put up and listening to that one back and forth, up' n down I noticed, the fails have become more in compare to the older stuff. I have not found the mind storms alley I used to enter some 10 years back whenever I liked to.
Feeling kind of tired all the time, like worn out.
Can't say if it's for aging reasons or whatever. Some decrease in wellness all around, and with all the friggin' health issues I went through the past years it's been some loss alltogether. I still get some pretty creative inner eruptions all along, but the fire in it seems to grow low, and also my attention span isn't that enduring.
Somehow I just feel like shut down early. Especially if I was out windsurfing for a few hours, hiking the trails up in the gum fields or down around the point. I think I'm not just getting old, but lazy.

Will see whether that trip to Europe will bring it back up.
Still, my friggin laptop is set with all EU locators, so I hope they don't take me an unwanted foreigner in the meantime, as we do hear quite a lot about refugee issues and "We're full!" type of messages, all right.
We are not going to file for asylum, no worries!
On first we'll stay at the Trysilfjallet for a while, Magnus' old folks invitation wise, and we want to check snowboarding. Snowboarding during summer time must be the coolest thing really. Oh okay,. it's the other hemisphere, I forgot.

Thinking of doing a last visit at my people's place as I haven't seen them in nearly 10 years. Dunno whether that trip would re-inspire some musical sparks and what not. I don't really bet on it much.
My latest outbursts of creativity had led me to literature and poetry, and then doing some fashion design for local skate-wear, snowboarder and surfers. No big deal, really. Although I've got an award in literature once more, what's called remarkable by some people, if they knew I never made it to one serious goddamn' school certificate, eh.=8o)

So this is how I lack the possibility of writing any more of my word-squall metaphoric symbolistic reviews any longer, lately. I can't stay online for the long I'd like to, and also my download quality is so devastatingly lame it would take hours and hours with having the technicz shut down and make me start anew every suckcockin' oh so long, driving me nuts in the act.
So whilst I hope folks don't mind me hangin' about rather idle, I might get up some old things I had hidden away. I think there will not be an awful lot of fresh tunez as log as this circumstance of mental dough likes to fool me senses.

Anyway, thanx to those that listen and review, read and outstandingly bear the noise, he he.

Remember ... whenever u assume something, u're making an ass out of u and me. ( I just wrote that, because I couldn't think of anything better, and I liked the fish ) (( Usually such quotes show to people precisely, that most of my equations just are bat-shit-crazy ))
((( Now I forgot, what I was going to say, see, that's what usually happens--- )))

So long, it could be shortly.